Thanks, dbab, for your informative reply--I visited the website you suggested and learned many things. Fear of the unknown has been worse than actually having to go through with it. I definitely have some decisions to make. Again, thank you for your warm welcome, concern, and taking the time to help me.
As for CheerDad--at this point in time, I do not need a curt reply and dismissive attitude regarding my reluctance to therapy. Perhaps you could stoically agree to a therapy that can't be fully understood by medical science, but I need more options than this. Simply, save your judgment for someone else!
Hi dbab--you're right, I shouldn't have "shot from the hip", as the old saying goes, in responding to CheerDad. It's just that I feel very fragile right now and a little TLC goes a long way with me these days. I feel very alone and no one seems to understand. Yes, I know I should be up front with my doctor, but fear of the ultimate outcome (ECT) has stood in the way.
Your suggestion about finding another doctor ia an excellent one. Trouble is, the town I live in isn't exactly teeming with psychiatrists. (One, to be exact.)I'll spare you a sob story, but I'm not exactly in a position to travel out of area to another one. But your message has enlightened me enough to stand up for myself (I have always been intimidated by him) and ask: "I haven't tried all the anti-depressants available, and I'm clearly not responding to the medication I'm taking now, so why not try another? "
Thank you for the encouragement at a time when it is most needed. Wish me luck. To you, all the best.
Hi MindsEyeopen! It's so nice to meet you, and thank you for your well wishes. You are so right--it helps to have a place to go where one can post a problem and then receive caring, positive feedback.
I hope when I eventually find a medication therapy that works, I can begin to be of help to someone else--of course, I'm always available to listen!
Take care. Enjoy your day!