You are not alone. What you have described is some of the symptoms that some or most of us have. Depression brings some really nasty friends with it. Not our friends, depression friends. Don't ever let anyone tell you depression isn't a real illness because it is. People are depressed for many different reasons. OK...you told me part of why you are depressed, right? I am so sorry about your relationship. That must be tough on you and I empathize. I am depressed because I am sick and there is no cure, I am 1,200 miles from my entire family including my 5 grandkids and my daughters and my 84 yr old mom. I am depressed because I am home day after day, week after week and I live in a very isolated area in Vermont, beautiful but isolated, (actually, I like it that way) Why should I make others depressed just cause I am. I can hardly do some things for myself and my husband is very understanding. To me, that's depression. However, I should be ashamed because depression is losing a child or a loved one over seas. Depression is not having a job or money to feed a family. Depression is not have a home. Depression is having cancer and suffering day after day. Depression is children all over the world being brought into this world without say so and then they starve. No one asks to be born. We just are. Depression is an elderly person all alone in a nursing home with no family. Depression is a young child with cancer and no hair. I can go on and on. So, what I am trying to say is that there are many reasons to be depresed. I guess it's how we learn to deal with it that counts!