I know exactly how you feel. We go on day after day and none of them seem any different then the one before. It's like being in a maze. You can't seem to find your way out so you just give up and stay stagnant. I don't work, I can't drive because I have seizures so I am home day after day, week after week only hoping to get for a doctor appt. Sad but true and I am so used to it right now, I don't know anything different. This is going to sound strange, but when my husband is home on the weekends, I feel like he is infringing on my territory. Weird, huh? I have been like this for so long that I can't handle change. Go figure but I know where you are coming from.
Thanks for all the responses. Sorry it has been so long since I posted over here. I'm currently off all anti-ds due to some severe side-effects. After I'm through the rough spot at work, my pcp wants to try Effexor and Remeron. He feels I may be suffering from anxiety more than depression. I just don't know.
Lately my depression has turned to frustration and anger--I really don't like the direction this is leading me in. I guess it is time I started to lead myself in a different direction. Life is just so hard at times...
I know exactly how you feel, as I am there right now, I too think I have forgotten how to be happy and how it feels, I also often wonder if I ever was happy, or have I always been this way. It hurts when my boyfriend says to me that I am like this all the time, as he must just see me as a right miserable cow. But if you need a friend or a chat, then I am about, I have just joined todday and am looking for some friends and people who understand me insted of looking at me like I am some sort of nut,