Hello again Mercy,
If you are having suicidal thoughts, please consider getting help. I'm glad you said you don't think you'll act on those thoughts. 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) is a hotline you can call with people to talk to.
I've heard that holding a piece of ice to the place you want to self injure can relieve the urge to hurt yourself.
Please take good care of yourself.
It's not whether you get knocked down, it's whether you get up.
Courage is knowing what not to fear. -Socrates
The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step. -Lao Tzu