First off i just wanted to welcome you to the Healingwell family.
i hate that you've been in such a crappy place(mentaly speaking) for this long and to be no older then you are. I wish i hade some magical words to make things all better for you,but I don't, and for that i'm sorry.
i myself have been taking medication for depression and anxiety for the past couple years and am glad i finally did. things have gotten alot better most days. and on those that aren't good i try to keep in mind there will be tomarrow to try again.
things DO get better, eventually.maybe not tomarrow or the next day, but they do.
come here to vent all you want. sometimes just getting things off your chest, can help alot.
takecare of yourself.
37, Married w/ four kids.
Had problems since age 13.
Dx'd with Crohn's in Spring of 1991.
Resection that December.
Had follow up surgery December of 2004.