Annie: Hang in there girl, I too have often felt the same but never did anything b/c I do have a beautiful daughter. Have you sought perfossional help? If not, please try that and we are here to listen to you!
YES! You are in danger!
The following link will take you to the second topic of the Depression Forum "Depression Resources"
In the the second, third and FOURTH post, you will find clickable links. Please either use one of those links or call your county mental health department or an 800 hot-line from your phonebook. Don't wait . . . you owe it to yourself to get help with this.
Please let us know how it goes after you have contacted someone who has experience with this. None of us are trained to help you.
We really do care about you sis!!
Please reach out and talk to someone in your life, a counsellor, healthcare professional, or someone else that you trust, who won't judge you and will help you. If worst comes to worst please call 911.
Life is worth living even with the pain. Your family wants you in their life, pain and all. Be proud of yourself for reaching out. Now reach a little farther and let someone guide you until you don't have these feelings anymore. It's okay to lean on other people in difficult time.
And, keep talking to us.