Rianna: I came across a former post of yours which mentioned SAM-E and Remeron. I was wondering why you stopped the SAM-E. I noticed it was expensive, I have tried it, but because I could not afford to get it regularly I couldn't decide for sure if it was helping but I think it helped. The reason I was staying away from SSRIs was from the side effects, namely the "zombi-effect" of Lexapro and Prozac you mentioned, but compared to what I'm feeling now I want that zombi effect back, but just because I know it will stop the bad feelings. It seems you have had similar effects and effectiveness to me on these drugs so I thought I'd ask you some more about it. I have tried Nortryptaline (which is a tricyclic antidepressant I think and something I read said it was an SSNRI too), which seemed to make me not depressed, but let the anxiety out for the first real time I'd noticed it (or took note of it for that matter since before I knew anything about the anxiety I thought it was all the depression). I am staying away from SSNRIs because of horrible effects I've had from Effexor and from Nortryptaline whatever that exactly is. I'll ask my doctor about the Remeron. While I know Lexapro is the quickest solution to feeling "ok" again, I know it will still give me that same zombie feeling after a while. It's the numbing of my other emotions I can't stand, after all life seems broken without true passion and love. I was wondering about the SAM-E and Remeron to see if I could get on Lexapro to just get through living for now and then switch over or just maybe start Remeron and take some suppliments to help out.