Willow, i can tell youre in pain, but you can't give up or lose hope. Youve been trying so hard, why give up now. You should try to just get out and do the things that you still love to do. A day stress-free, just to get out and remember how great life can be. Their are going to be bumpy roads in life, but once you get through them, youre going to be glad you stuck around and fought. Just remember that. Sometimes all you really need to do is talk, ive found this website helps. Never stop fighting.