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ShynSassy
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   Posted 12/9/2005 5:54 PM (GMT -7)   
It's funny,there are so many checklists out there for depression,do you feel this....did this happen to you...
I am amazed on how many things I check yes to that I've actually survived in my life...so many
And I keep thinking,how can it get worse? What can happen to me that is worse than what I've been though in my life. Death? Umm no that can't be worse as then I wouldn't have to worry about what else is going to happen.
Some people just don't get it
Don't worry about the world ending,it's already tomorrow in Australia!


bevhea
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   Posted 12/9/2005 6:22 PM (GMT -7)   
Be forewarned that I have a nasty sense of humor. Ready? Checklists are depressing followed by "And I keep thinking, how can it get worse?" Well, I thought, keep reading the lists and you find something.

Sorry, like I said, it's my nasty sense of humor.

I read your introductory post and obviously this one. You do sound like a survivor, but also like withdraw makes it possible. That works, but it also keeps people from growth and getting to feel better. How about numbering refused requests--and everytime you get to 5--you do it, no matter what it is--then go to 4, then 3, then 2. Actually I doubt if you would need to make it to two. Most likely you will be happier and able to give up artifical guidelines.

bev

ShynSassy
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Date Joined Dec 2005
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   Posted 12/10/2005 7:24 AM (GMT -7)   
I agree with you..withdraw is what is making it mostly possible for me to survivor.But,I still have my days to where I hit rock bottom. Cry for hours,trying to twart the thoughts of suicide. Of course the holiday's make it worse.
After reading some of your posts it looks like your a survivor,and I was wondering for how long?
Don't worry about the world ending,it's already tomorrow in Australia!


bevhea
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Total Posts : 240
   Posted 12/10/2005 9:19 AM (GMT -7)   
Please understand as you read this that the length of time it took to achieve comfort was determined years of stuffing. The sooner someone attacks a problem, the sooner they will get to a comfort zone.

The year I started getting better was 1983. By 1986 I was functioning well enough that another event that should have sunk my boat, didn't. Well, actually it did for a while, but that was the event that caused me to swear, I would never, ever again by thrown by life's events.

My official year for being well was 1989. That year, I began acting on my world again. That means, I was better enough to "handle" the daily events in the day. It doesn't mean I don't still cry sometimes. It doesn't mean I'm never sad or hurt. I means, I handle such times in the way least harmful to myself and those around me.

Since then I've had a few days of great upset. I cried or froze or got angry, but those had become signals that I needed new or to adjust coping skills. I could make choices about a course of action. I could stick to it or adjust it, if that was the prudent thing to do.

I've also had both good and bad ah-ha days, since then. That means some event triggered a sudden, unexpected understanding of past events. Those continue to this day. Last night, I was typing and out of nowhere, I realized another of the sneaky, harmful things my mother had done when I was very young.

In 1989 I would have been shaken by that and spent days and days thinking and trying to remember more about the event.

Between 1986 and 1989, I would phoned family members to find out out what was true.

Between 1983 and 1986, I would have latched onto that thought and had a civil war inside me. One side wanted truth and the other wanted to believe that people who was supposed to love me, did love me. Those civil wars immobilized me sometimes for days, sometimes for weeks and sometimes for months.

Before 1983, I would have stuffed that and all similar thoughts.

So I see being a survivor as having levels. For me:

pre 1983--the blind years, no idea that one day I would hit a wall
1983-1986--the civil war years, major recognition of horrible things
1986-1989--the search years, gaining understanding and acceptance of what has been
1989-2005--the adjustment years, learning new coping skills, and
the comfortable years, being fully functioning

bev
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