Sorry to hear what you are going thorugh. I know I can relate to some of that.
Bev has some good points. and I agree you should not send an email saying it is ok to go.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Well, I did not send either of the girls an email telling them it was ok to be open about going. Last Monday I totally broke down as soon as I got home and just cried. I was talking to my friend that has the friend having the party. I told her I thought it was really rude of her friend. I told her that if I am alone that night no telling what could happen. My friend started crying on the phone too. I ended up calling another friend that is not at all part of that group and she said she had no plans but did not plan to stay up til midnight. We plan on going to dinner and a movie. She has been known to have to back out of things at the last minute. She has a daughter that has some medical problems and sometimes should not be left alone, even though she is an older teen. Well, one of the friends came over Mon. night to go somewhere with me. She told me after I told her my plans that she had planned to back out quietly and do something with me. I told her to come with us but I dont know what she will do. I did send an email to my friend and just spilled out everything that I was feeling. It was a long email and she responded but did not address the email. She read it at work and did not have time to respond and never has. She did admit to me that this other friend specifically said she did not want me there. I have told the other two friends how I felt but I am sure it won't make any difference. I guess I should ask them early next year. Sometimes I seriously think it would be better not to have any friends. Then you can't get hurt.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.
Thanks for all your input. I am going to do something that I really hate doing. I am the one that started the Thursday night girls night out. I look forward to it as at least I can be around people. Well tonite I got an email from one of my friends. Another friend has said he wants to go out Thursday night to this one place. I have not seen him since Aug. when a bunch of us went to his house to wish him Happy Birthday. He has cancer and was going thru treatments so he could not be around people. Well, I noticed on the email that this friend who sent the email invited the one person who did not want me at her house NYE. I feel it is best to decline going. It would be too uncomfortable for me. You all are right, I need to make some new friends, but the ones I usually hang out with are good friends. It is not their fault I did not get invited to NYE. But since this other person is becoming friends with my friends, they will all be doing things together and the sooner I bow out the better. I hope this makes sense.