I'm not feeling very good right now. In fact, I'm feeling more depressed and lost right now than I have in a long time.
For a little background on myself, I'm 21 years old...almost 22 (female). I began having problems with depression and anxiety when I graduated from high school. (I had a lot of changes in my life and apparently I'm bad with changes.) I eventually went on Lexapro and was on it for about
a year and a half but I went off it because I felt like it was making me gain a lot of weight.
7 weeks ago I began taking Wellbutrin (150mg in the morning) and I've had good days and bad days. I haven't noticed too much of a drastic change in my mood...other than an decrease in my appetite, and I have a shorter temper. I do feel like I'm a lot angrier and negative.
I started a new job (working at a bank) at the same time I began taking Wellbutrin and have yet to feel at ease at work. I feel extremely overwhelmed with everything in life right now and I feel myself wanting to cry a lot of the time. There are moments where I'm happy and relaxed but usually towards the beginning of every week I have a mental breakdown. (I keep wanting to quit my job and I find myself tossing and turning at night thinking about
I hate feeling this way and just want to be happy. Even the good things in my life are making me feel overwhelmed. I feel like nothing I do is ever good enough and I feel like I'm never satisfied with anything anymore. I'm beginning to hate life and I'm having a hard time seeing a good future for myself. I'm not sure if this is a phase or if Wellbutrin is not the right medicine for me.
I just went to the doctor today and he wants to up my dose to 300mg in October. He said I should workout more to help boost the positive effects of the medicine. I have a hard time
opening up to anybody about
how I'm actually feeling so I didn't exactly express how horrible I'm feeling right now to him. I just said that I haven't noticed a drastic difference and that I have good days and bad days. (I also mentioned that it took months for me to feel a difference on the Lexapro so that could be the case here.)
I'm just hoping I can get back on track soon because it kinda sucks feeling like this. I feel like I'm wasting my life away.edited into paragraphs for ease of reading
Post Edited By Moderator (BnotAfraid) : 7/12/2017 11:05:57 AM (GMT-6)