I'm having a difficult time right now. Let me give you some background.
I was in a two years relationship with my girlfriend. We had our disagreements but we where good team. From my career I always wanted to work in Germany as an engineer, so I decided to move to Germany and look for a job, I came to Berlin a cheap city but very rought city. During my first month I maintainted my relationship with my girlfriend, I even make a short visit to America to spend time with her and my family. She felt that she could not handle a long distance relationship, so we ended up and remain friends.
After that month I came to Berlin and continued with my job search, i enroll some sports clubs and language classes to make friends, but I didn't help a lot, I spent my weekends alone, I even tried online dating, but it didn't work. Back in August i found out my ex was dating, but i though it was nothing serious. I was happy for her. So I continue with my job search to get my dream to land a job in Germany as an engineer.
The last 4 months have been very lonely and depressed, I wake up void and with pain in my heart, even anxieties. though the process i manage to make a friend or two and got used to the city. Last week finally I got a job offer in another city, all the sacrificies payed off, but really? I felt so alone, i had no one to share my goal, at that moment all i wanted was a hug, but got none. There is not a day i don't cry. I couldn't call my ex whom has always supported me.
I have this dilema, where i achieved my goal to land a job but I'm all alone, depressed and make up with a heavy heart. If i take this job i would need to move to another city and start all over again, give it a 5 months try, Or i could go back home to my family, friends and even maybe trying to get back to my ex and finally settle there.
I'm too tired of crying, being lonely and anxieties....
What do you think? what would you do in my situation?
Post Edited (Marco Medina) : 10/1/2017 5:44:19 AM (GMT-6)