Hi Tallman52, I am sorry for the loss of your wife. It sounds to me as if you needed to go to grief counseling and probably still do. You were trying to fill a void/loss in your life that you will not ever be able to fill. You just needed to learn how to move on. But what is done is done, it can be fixed. I agree with Ann, you can check with local churches on counseling, for one. Second, go to the local Department of Social Services and have them print you out a list of providers that DO except medicaid. You can greatly benefit from seeing a therapist and psychiatrist but it can be expensive. A Primary Care Physician can prescribe antidepressants if you explain to him how you feel. You do have a regular physician don't you? As for your wife, I think you need to sit down and talk to her about how you feel. Maybe she is picking up on your wanting to leave and being so unhappy, and this is why she is not compromising with the smoking thing. Maybe she figures why bother if your just going to leave anyway? I am just throwing things out there from a females perspective. Please don't be offended. I was married for 5 yrs and now divorced so I can relate (sorta). I congratulate you for quitting smoking, 2 years is great, and even living with a smoker and still not picking it back up is excellent. I quit this past June due to heart problems. Good luck, I hope this helps. ~elisha
Also - I just had a thought, you said that you are on disability right? have you ever tried to sign up for Medicare? If you are receiving a disability check and or SSI you may be eligible for Medicare insurance. It wouldn't hurt to look into it. Especially if you are long term disabled.
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