*I posted this in the anxiety forums but wasnt sure if it belonged there or here...cause its kinda both problems for me*
I don't know if any of you can relate to this or not, but ill put it up here and hopefully someone can either benefit from reading it or help me out. Well i just turned 18 last september, and ive been a drug user since i was about
14....started with pot, of course...and then eventually tried other things. Those who have had expierience living the life style ive lived the past few years probably know what im talking about
. Anyways, recently ive been getting very depressed and anxious about
the "unknown" and realizing that im not invincible and that just like everone else i will die someday. My mom is a very religiously rooted person, and my dad is not, and just like everyone else..if there is a hell i really dont wanna go there. Well i dont know what to believe, im still "soul searching" or "finding myself" i suppose you'd call it. But for some reason its causing me a TON of stress and anxiety/depression. I dont know what to do about
it, it just consumes my thoughts all day long. I've just started seeing a counsler and I've made the decision to go back to church with my mom and give it a try, but i have problems believing in something like that, at least at the moment. I have not been officially diagnosed with anxiety yet, but i know thats what it is, so im not on any medication. And i have decided to quit all drugs because they intensify these feelings. I guess im just looking for someone who can relate to this...kinda not to hopeful there is though.