I often think about death and the bigger questions of life. I used to constantly think about it and talk to others about it and other people seemed disinterested. I did not understand how they could not care as much about this subject as I did. To me this was the only important subject there is. Why are we here? What happens after we die? These are important questions.
I try and think more and more about daily things and what I can do to improve my life. I have read many books in the search for the answer. I have read philosophy, christianity, buddhism, and many others. I wonder why do I think about this subject so often.
My father is elderly now and has no health problems. When I was a child and now I worry alot about him dieing. I do not know how I am going to deal with it when he does.
I think most people are so busy with thier day to day life that they don't think of these things. Or people rely on thier faith whatever it may be to answer thier questions and that frees them to go about thier daily affairs.
I don't think that anyone knows for sure and that the question is simple but the answer is very very complicated. I do not know the answer. I do not know if anyone does. How many people completely understand quantum physics? This subject is exponentially more complicated than quantum physics, wouldn't you say? I think that people have pieces of the puzzle but that most do not fully understand the piece they have.
Yes I have the same phobia you do. Tell me more of how you feel if you think it will help you. Get envolved in your religion or looking for a religion for you if you think this will help. Read on the subject and read inspirational things.
I hope I have helped you some. Good Luck in getting help. Have a great day.