p.s. Anesthesia has also been known to trigger depression. Most times, this depression passes; other times, it remains and needs a little help to dissipate; anesthesia's are very powerful and can really put our body in a "tailspin" for awhile.
Post Edited (Neurotransmissing) : 3/22/2006 1:31:21 AM (GMT-7)
I'm glad you are doing better. You feelings are very understandable. Especially since your "hits" of bad news appear to be consistent. I know that my illness, MS, hits me hard on a very regular basis; so I won't sit here and pretend that I can relate to your experience with heart disease and the fear that must accompany that ... because that's simply not true at all. I'm sure that's very difficult to cope with. It's good that you have your Christian faith to rely on. I suspect that if you lean heavily on that, you will find your way. Whether it be with care, treatment or faith. It does sound like you are addressing things in a very well-rounded fashion, and He will lead the way since you choose to let Him.
You remain in my prayers!
oh hopes thank you! I did want to add which I didn't to my post before and I think it is important is that there is never any guarantee. In my case the docs can say "well it maybe 2 yrs or could be 6 yrs" but the thing I found about my disease is that I dont fall into the catogrey of everyone else. Usually it strikes men more so than women who are over 60. So I am shooting for at least 30 more... In the case of heart disease it can be the same, there are no guarantees on life span and what may or could happen. All we can do is the very best to take care of ourselves.
Have you heard stories about people that lived so healthy all their lives, jogged every morning, didn't smoke, ate what they were supposed to every day, never had to take any medication for anything. Then BAM they are out jogging and fall over dead from a major heart attack. It is always such a shock. I know of two people personally like this. And I was just reflecting on how fortunate we are to know what of physical defects we have and to be able to have the chance to live better lives and get treated. And also hopefully, maybe, had a little fun along the way.....
Post Edited (Neurotransmissing) : 3/24/2006 3:21:59 AM (GMT-7)
Yes Neurotransmissing you are correct that upon diagnosis of MSA life expectancy is quoted to be 7-10 years. In most things that you read on MSA it also quotes this time frame.
However, I was just saying in my case, as my Movement Disorder Specialist who diagnosed me has given me this time frame. The reason being as I already have had the heart problems that go along with this disease and have had a pacemaker implant for it. Extremely low blood pressure that is not stabilized even with medications and breathing problems. So, I am quite advanced in all my symptoms of MSA.
Cindy, I am so sorry that MSA is a possibility for you. It is a terrible and nasty disease to have and even the prospect of having it can be mind wrenching. I dont mind sharing like experiences with you at all, this is a very rare disease and we have to stick together if we are fortunate enuf to find someone who has the same thing.
Hi marccorda, I wanted to tell you welcome to healing well forum.
I was wondering if you had suffered some sort of childhood trauma such as physical, mental or sexual abuse? Or perhaps maybe in early adulthood? You dont have to tell us here. But I wanted to say what you have described in your post is a common feeling for people who have been traumatized and they have never really mentally learned how to deal with it. This process is called Dissociation. There are different levels to dissociation and it is different of course for everyone. I was sexually abused as a child for several years and as I grew into an adult I would have flashbacks (which are a type of dissociation) and often felt that I was like a "non person" as I didnt respond the same way others did or didnt have feelings similar to what you described.
Regardless it really sounds like you need to seek the help of a counselor or psychiatrist or doctor even. There is no harm in it, I see one once a month no matter if i need it or not. It sounds like the emotions are there you just dont know how to let them out and with therapy it could help so much.
Please keep us updated on how your doing....Take care