I too often feel that what I say here is inadequate or isn't going to be helpful for someone else. But you dont have to come up with great uplifting things to say I realized. For me, just being able to share some of our like experiences and getting it out is like releasing toxins from your body. You dont have to share anything with us that you dont want to. I do want you to know or at least think about this...this is a safe place for you to express whatever you are going through. I haven't seen you post anything that someone could recognize you from just reading it. You dont use your real name and haven't posted your city or state. Healing Well has over 27,000 members that is a lot of people.
I see that you are still trying to go the supplement route in regards to medication. You have mentioned that you feel that your a burden on your parents and are having trouble keeping a job even a part time one. What money you do get you spend on supplements. I realize that you have posted that you feel that doctors and counselors judge you. But here is my suggestion on this coming from being a caseworker and working in the mental health field for many years. Have you ever thought of filing for disability before? The reason I ask is that you posted before you have been diagnosed with "mild paranoid personality disorder". Any kind of personality disorders can disrupt someones life to major extremes and does qualify for disability benefits. This maybe a solution if you were able to get on SSDI you could still work part time and afford to get an apartment on your own if that is what you wanted to do. Then maybe you would feel a little better about yourself. It is something to think about.
Take care and have a wonderful day......
Post Edited (jjjjj) : 3/25/2006 2:39:50 PM (GMT-7)
I hope you will reconsider applying for help through your State. If you need the help, whether it be Medicaid, food stamps, etc., then accept the help! As for these people that are hassling you over it, it may help to remind them that your State doesn't just "give" this stuff away, you have to be eligible! So obviously you are entitled to it; they do not live inside you ... and are in no position to pass judgement.
Sweetie, try to avoid negative people as much as possible; I think you should go apply, accept the help, and get better. A very wise lady used to remind me of something:
What other people think is none of my business!
Opinions are like "poo-holes," everybody has one!
When you point a finger at someone, four are pointing back at you!
God did not appoint anyone to judge me! When He does, I'll let you know! ROFL
Sweetie, hang in there! Forget what other people think, it's none of their business! You're a grown woman now. By the grace of God, there go THEY!
(((HUGS))) and I'm praying for you. Please keep posting!
EDIT: Try to remember, Living in the Solution eliminates the problem. One more piece of advice, about the sneers and comments; people can be very cruel. When you get reactions such as those, remind yourself that you would never trade places with them; as poor character is the worst illness and disease there is ... it's deadly to the spirit!!! I'd much rather be poor (and was, and went through much of what you describe, years ago) than trade places with the ignorant!
p.s. Meanwhile, check this out; it will help you cope as you move forward; a lot of folks are finding it very helpful, and it helps me tremendously: http://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=452747
Post Edited (Neurotransmissing) : 3/26/2006 4:49:36 PM (GMT-7)