Hi everyone I am new here. I guess I will start from the top with my story. At the age of 17 I was hospitilized for bipolar disorder which I do not think I have. Anyways I was hospitilized twice meds worked for a while but then I would just crash down into a further depression. At the age of 18 I stopped all meds because I was happy and didn't think they were really doing anything to help me. Since that time I still suffer occasional bouts of depression. I will also add in that my mom has schizo-affective disorder and that I have many aunts and uncles with depression. I am now soon to be 26 and I just feel very alone. I am married and I work and go to school right now. I am just overwhelmed I don't want to go to my classes I don't feel like it is worth my time I feel like noone cares if I suceed or fail. I have had these feelings before this is the same way I felt when I dropped out of high school.
I just feel worthless the only thing I even enjoy anymore is work and lately that has not given me much enjoyment at all I use to be eager to be there and now I am anxious to get off of work and come home and not do anything.
My husband and I fight constantly he has a anger problem that we have been trying to work through, and it is negativly impacting the way I feel.
I just have a millon thoughts running through my head and no matter what I do I can't seem to get rid of the negativity. I am tired all the time, yet I can't sleep I overreact to little things and the list goes on. I know what can happen if I let this go on. I nearly lost my life to the negative thoughts when I was younger that is the only reason I got help then. I am thinking I need to take the summer semester of school off and visit with my family and friends some and let my mind get some rest.
I am also considering asking my dr to prescribe me an anti-depressent I have taken zoloft and it did nothing for me.
I know there are new drugs out can anyone tell me anything about them?
Heaven’s gates won’t open up for me With these broken wings I’m fallin’ And all I see is you These city walls ain’t got no love for me I’m on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you Come please I’m callin’ And all I need from you Hurry I’m fallin’ Show me what it’s like To be the last one standing And teach me wrong from right And I’ll show you what I can be Say it for me Say it to me And I’ll leave this life behind me Say it if it’s worth saving me Hurry I’m fallin’
Nickelback- Savin' Me