It has been a year now,and I still crave the meds

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ShynSassy
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   Posted 4/6/2006 5:59 AM (GMT -7)   
Some already know the story but since so many are new,here it is...I moved in with my b/f to a different town after my whole life went downhill. I did not have insurance since I lost my job,and my bank account was down to nothing. I had been taking tranxene,wellbutrin,tylenol 3 with codine for about 3 years. Before that I had been on numerous types of meds. I went cold turkey from the meds last December with the help of my b/f and quite frankly shots of jack daniels several times throughout the days to get over the withdrawls. I did make it but,I still crave the meds and it seems as though there is a different sign everyday that I am off of them.
Examples are one that I now actually dream. Where before I think I was so doped up that I never remembered my dreams.
I find myself going back into the hyper mode several times throughout the week,where before I was always to tired.
I cry less,I laugh more.
BUT
When the depression cycles around again,I crave the meds. I fight it as I do not want to ever go back down that road again. And my b/f reminds me how much better I look as I have actually gained a few pounds. My color is better and I am more active.
I worry though that if something happens between us and I do not have his support that I will do what I am used to..call the doctor and get right back on them.
I have done some research on the type of meds I was on (that is scary all in itself) but found that the tranxene can take 2-4 years to be completely out of your system. And they say NEVER try to go cold turkey. I guess I must have been lucky on that part. But do not advise anyone to do it,more important with the drinking to get over it. But,I had to do what I could to make it through it.
Has anyone else experienced that same type of things?
shynsassy@healingwell.net


Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia


brownleaf
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   Posted 4/6/2006 6:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Shy,
Just wanted to say good on you for what you have done, i haven't had the experience, but i have been around many people who have dependencies on various Meds and other stuff, hey Im proud of ya,

els
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   Posted 4/6/2006 6:28 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi ShynSassy,  I have several times stopped my medications or antidepressant for various reasons through out the 13 or so years I have been on them.  I do eventually end back on them though but always because my depression becomes way too much to handle alone for me.  I just want to say to you that if you feel that you have made the right choice in stopping your medications (no matter how you did it as you cant change that now) then you have my complete support.  Only you can say what is right and best for you.  Just remember that you are never really alone, you have wonderful kids and you have us :-) ....no matter what should happen in your relationship.  Hugs
~elisha~ 
 
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ShynSassy
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   Posted 4/6/2006 7:02 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you so much brownleaf and Elisha,you guys are a great support system!
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ShynSassy
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   Posted 4/8/2006 6:32 AM (GMT -7)   
I am not sure I would call it a "success" as of yet. I am sure I will be on here posting about how I think I need the meds again,I have not beat the depression,just stopped taking meds for it.
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els
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   Posted 4/8/2006 6:48 AM (GMT -7)   
Well, if or when that happens we will be here for you......

~elisha~ 
 
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