I have never had a problem making friends either but after a while I usually end up distancing myself. I was sexually abused by my stepfather for many years as a child. I just cant let myself get too close to people and men especially. This is a habit I have been trying to break and with counseling I have been doing pretty well with it. I still have some major trust issues but who wouldnt.
Anytime you go through a traumatic event no matter what it is you are going to automatically go into protect mode. And when your a child and are hurt it is even worse as you dont know how to trust people or believe if what they are saying is true. I think what you and I both have to do is just take each person on an individual basis. Either it is in person or on this site. I have been able to meet some wonderful people on this site alone that I am grateful for.
ways to help support healing well:
At first I thought how you focus on being hurt instead of the positive feelings that come from having a long term friend. Then it occured to me that it's probably emotions that happen so fast you don't realize you do it as you do it. It's just reaction.
Do you realize you are doing it as you do it? Or does it happen so fast, you realize it after the fact?