Ive been trying to think of exactly how to respond to that Randy. I appreciate the advice, I just don't think that is me.
I am not so sure that my anger isn't justified. I am just worried about it getting out of control. My situation at work really sucks and I am stuck because I have to have the job for health insurance. You see, I get these episodes of extreme anger that is directed at a person or purpose. I have a very short fuse and absolutely no tolerance for BS. I am staying home from work this week, I think it would be best. I am going to ask my doctor about the anger issue.
I am really worried that it might be more than just anger or depression. It is scary when I get mad these days. I freak out my co-workers and most people in the general area I think. I don't want to have a psychotic episode and strangle someone that gets on my nerves. Being a former military marksman who is also proficient in Ju-jitsu and likes to study medieval weaponry makes me a little more dangerous than the average joe too. I need something to mellow me out before I can go back to my job.
My home life is cool. My wife is great and we rarely ever have an argument, unless it is over who gets the remote! My friends know I have a temper and stuff, but they rarely see any of 'that' guy. I keep it under wraps pretty well for friends and family. When I get into a fight with a family member I usually just 'shut down' - the anger never really comes out on them, which is a good thing.
Anyways, thanks for your input. If you still think your situation is the same as mine let me know. I would appreciate any other opinions on this before I get to see my doctor.