Hi Narianna! How are you doing? Hope you're feeling better. Here's a smile for you -
Oh yes, i never seen you in chatroom. You don't like chatting??
Narianna: Not feeling emotions (or wanting to feel them) and going numb has always been my specialty. It is our protective defense as our mind/body knows that we are not yet equipped to deal with everything on our plate. But as another member mentioned above, when this numbness starts to melt away, it is our body/minds way of saying that we are ready or need to start dealing with it at least a little bit.
I am at the point where I lost my numbness about 2 years ago. I have had it since my childhood. Now in my late 30's I am struggling as I do not know "what to do" with all the difficult feelings that I repressed.
Give yourself a lot of time, patience and support. Also, perhaps try writing in a journal as a means to work through something and help yourself. I do believe that someday we will break out of these inner walls and truly feel and experience life at its best.