Hi Tropicana, Welcome to healing well forums. We are happy to have you. Being a female too I understand the pressures to look perfect. I gave into this in my high school days when some of the girls on my cheer team shared the secrets of eating disorders. Which I too soon developed. I also ended up falling off stunt one day and broke my nose, then it was broke again in softball a year later. This has left a bump in it which I am very self conscious about
. Looking in the mirror isn't so bad but I really notice it in picture of myself. Maybe one day I will get it fixed, who knows. It seems that your boyfriend has quite a bit of insight as he is right in that your perception of yourself is skewed. You can be and look one way but you see something totally different. Plastic surgery will never correct that. You have to first be emotionally stable with yourself and through therapy you should be able to get there. I know you mentioned that you see a therapist but she is unresponsive to what you need to talk to her about
...change therapists. Plain and simple. You pay for that service and if you are not getting any benefit from it then you need to move on to someone who can help you.