I just joined, and am wondering if anyone knows how to locate support groups for people whose loved ones deal with depression. I live with my boyfriend who suffers from bouts of hopelessness/helplessness/self-sabotage/emotional detachment/energy loss, but is not currently treated for depression. He has been on and off medication in the past, but doesn't like the way it makes him feel, and does not think that talk therapy works for him. I try so hard to support him and give him what he needs, whether it's listening, massage treatments, or time alone, but sometimes it gets so overwhelming for me. Every morning I wake up hoping that today will be the day that whatever it is clicks and he feels happy and capable again (it tends to come and go sporadically), and then when I see how miserable he still feels it breaks my heart. It's so difficult to see someone you love so deeply hating himself so much, and I know that my crying doesn't help him feel any better...
Sorry this is so long. I just need people to talk to who can understand what I'm going through. I never want to undermine his experiences and make this "all about me," but it's hard to feel so helpless day in and day out. If anyone knows how I can find a group for myself, even just what key words to search on Google, I would really appreciate it. This week has been especially rough, and I could really use some support.
Thanks and take care,