I know it may sound cliche' but I think it is a good comparison: If you were diabetic, would you not take insulin because you would have to take it, possibly for the rest of your life? I've been on zoloft for over 10 years. I don't plan to come off of it. The only way would be if it lost it's effectiveness and the doctor put me on another anti-depressant. I can remember how bad I felt before the zoloft kicked in...really bad! If I had to choose between being "addicted" and feeling okay or not being "addicted" and feeling miserable all the time, I'd choose "addicted" every single time!
Life is all about choices. Sometimes our choices are limited and we have to choose between the lesser of "two evils". Of course, only you have the right to make that choice in regards to yourself, but when you weigh your options, be sure you have good resources and reliable info. Have you ever discussed your feelings about meds with a psychiatrist? Your fear may be unfounded and it would be so sad that you were walking around feeling terrible based on misinformation or possible prejudices influenced by some that don't really have all the facts. Please take care of yourself and I hope that you will go to a doctor or seek counseling. Get some relief! You deserve it!
I was okay until that flock of bird dogs flew over...