P.S. Meanwhile, try to pamper yourself and look into some relaxation therapies and techniques that are individually suitable for you. Also bear in mind that it can take up to six weeks for the various anti-depressant meds to kick in to full capacity. However, in some cases it is only a matter of days; I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. My only remaining suggestion is to try hard to relax and be patient until help arrives from the doctor and/or therapist.
Post Edited (Neurotransmissing) : 6/4/2006 1:16:04 PM (GMT-6)
Hi Redjeep, I understand perfectly how it feels when you have a spouse who is unsupportive when your ill. When I was first diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis and having to go through all the doctor appointments my husband never went with me. I was admitted on two occassions to the hospital 35 miles away from where we live to get Sol-Medrol Infusions, was in the hosp for 5 days each time and neither time did he come to visit me. I am blessed that I have a wonderful mother who is very supportive and was there for me everyday and continues to be there for me. But after several years of this type of treatment from my husband and his disdain over my having to take medications and the impact it had on HIS life, I finally snapped. My depression was at an all time high and if I didnt leave I feared I would harm myself. Only then did he try to make an effort to learn anything about what I was going through in an attempt to make me come back. Unfortunately, by this time our relationship in my eyes had broken down so far that I refused to go to counseling with him, and just wanted a divorce and to be done with it. Mind you I grew up in a very strict catholic home and divorce is a sin and very much against my personal beliefs. We have been divorced now for almost 2 years and have been able to form a friendship with each other, which is good I think but still I regret that I let things get as bad as they did as I believe now that my marriage could of been saved.
You are doing the right thing by getting into a counselor, perhaps when you go ask if they can suggest a psychiatrist that you can see. Psychiatrists can prescribe antidepressants and monitor them and the dosing while you are in therapy with the counselor, also they are most current on the best treatments. This way you wont have to worry about going through your family doctor for it. Then you may want to consider having your husband join you in your therapy sessions. Fact is that someone who is not dealing with a chronic illness as you are is not going to understand it, he needs to learn how to become more sympathetic to your feelings and needs. I dont know what to say about your father except that I would recommend that if he does spend time with your children you may want to sit down with him and tell him that you wont tolerate him taking negatively about you to them. That is not exceptable and he as a grandparent should not be exposing your children to this. Especially if he wants to continue to have a relationship with them and you.
I didnt intend to write a book here and ramble on....Please do keep posting. Take care
Post Edited (Akram) : 6/8/2006 7:47:28 AM (GMT-6)
Most people who suffer chronic pain will inherit some depression as well. It is almost like a side effect! Anyway, it is understandable. Have you spoken to your GI about this and how it is affecting your life? Even with the Welbutron, it is still affecting you? I wonder if a change in medication would help, or perhaps you have already done this. I always thought that antibiotics helps a flare as it is keeping in check whatever infection might be causing inflamation in the digestive tract. Are you taking meds (like 5 ASA type) to keep the inflamation down? It seems to help me. I get the feeling that they did not work on you and that is why you are on Immuron.
Remember, at this point, you need to take care of you and find/get what you need to stay well. That is so important.
I am so glad that your husband goes to appointments with you! Something will sink in. Maybe it already has but he doesn't know how to express it. Your father is a different story. I picture this, the next time he gives you a hard time about your sickness, give him a big hug and say, "I love yu, Daddy!" and see what he does. I don't know if this would work or not. I know if it was me, and my daughter threw her arms around me and said, "I love you, Mommy." my heart would melt. I guess that would be the same as the wag of the tail!
Anyway, I will see you on the Crohn's forum! Or maybe here!
God bless and stay well,
I'll keep you in my prayers for a good session tomorrow! Do let me know how things go! I will be thinking about you!
I am sorry this first session turned out to be unbeneficial to you. I hope your next session will be able to be about you and your feelings. If you find no benefit from this psychiatrist (hey! I checked out the spelling!), you can always change doctors. My daughter sees a counselor for an hour each session. She sees him once a month (it used to be weekly, so I guess it is helping her.) I only ask from her if she had a good session, I never pry into her sessions as I want her to have all the privacy she needs. So I can't report on couch-no couch-what is discussed, only that she goes.
I am with you, I don't hate living, I just wish I had more living to do! I don't like this chronic daily pain and nausea (I have both Chron's Disease and Chronic Pancreatitis) and so the moment I feel I can, I get up, showered, dressed for a great time and go! (I will be going to Santa Nella today with friends and am so excited!) I usually don't stay out too long, only as I see fit, but getting out even for an hour or two is great for my psyche! I notice I feel better just because I got to go out.
I will continue to think about you and pray that things will brighten up for you. I hope this psychiatrist will be helpful to you.
Keep your chin up and your foot forward. You will find better days, I am sure of it!