Oh Shy, I hate to hear you talk like that, you are so much stronger than you even realize or give yourself credit for. You have been through so much trauma and hurt in your life and to be able to pull yourself up and go on is an amazing feat. Especially to do so without medication, I couldn't live with my antidepressants I know I would be very bad off if I even tried.
Your working a lot of hours and worked very hard to find a job which was extremely stressful for you. Then you stress over trying to keep up with how you ran the house before you got the job. Not to mention that you are going to have days when you think about the past, it has made up who you are and changed you forever. Men just cant understand all of that (sorry guys if I offend you by this). Maybe the problem is that he just didn't realize that you needed him to stay and give you support instead of leaving for the weekend which was the worst thing he could of done. Or maybe if he would of sat down and talked to you and tried to understand and listen to you then things wouldn't of blown up as much as they did. I don't know...but I do know that guys just don't think the same as females. And your boyfriend knowing all that you have been through most likely just doesn't realize exactly how much you really struggle with it everyday to cope and have a normal life.
Your a good person Shy, don't give into it. I am sending you (((hugs)))...have a good Monday.