Hello Everyone! I got to work on time today and just logged on. I am not the everyday reader/poster for this site-but you are always on my mind. Since my last post things have gotten worse.
I just found out my job is not being extended past Aug. this year. My job is the one thing I feel makes me happy. Now when I come into work I think to myself "I am only going to be needed for another month and a half. This is one of the last days I'll be sitting at my desk. Boy, did I just waste $350.00 on more work clothes that I am not going to need anymore? ETC...." I feel like everyone is starting to let go of the idea of still being my friend after I leave here. They are already keeping a distance as to not get to involved with me. Like if they stay away they won't miss me as bad when I leave. I know I am going to miss them.
My husband keeps asking me "What are we going to do?" I don't have the answers for him.
I have not been out with the "boyfriend" in over 3 weeks now. He does still call and we text message. What usually happens is one of us ticks the other one off-and we hang up on each other. High school BS if you ask me.
My depression meds work fine, but I am in a cloud most of time. I find it's hard to care about anything too deeply. I am usually an outgoing person and now I just want to be left alone. I didn't go anywhere this weekend. I basically did housework, played some internet games, and watched tv.
I'm hoping things get better real soon. krocks