Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 7/6/2006 11:58:13 AM (GMT-6)
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 7/6/2006 11:52:18 AM (GMT-6)
Well, I was 3 yrs old when it started and 11 when it stopped. I am 32 now...so yeah there have been times that I have felt that I had moved past it and moved on, maybe even had it in my heart to forgive him (even though I hadn’t seen him since I was 11). For me though it was hard to realize that from that first day it started I was forever changed, and it has impacted my life in so many ways. It has in lots of ways made me a very strong woman, cautious and careful of men and my surroundings. But it has also tormented me for years and years. It is always there even if im not thinking of it and come in-between relationships and friendships and greatly hurt my self esteem. I don’t know if there is ever a point where you "get over it"; I just hope there is a point where I can live with it in peace. I go to counseling now for it, and have tried a few times to write down my feeling but even now they are too toxic. I refused counseling for so many years and wouldn’t talk about what happened so it is very difficult to let all that come out now I guess.