Hi brat ;) i hate that you hurt so bad, theres not much that can keep you as depressed as alot of pain. Im sure the scream helped the frustration, even if just one tiny bit, there are many times i have done the same. I wish i could give you a miracle to take the pain away, you need to get your mind really busy, into something that you like that would keep your attention. I know thats hard when you hurt, but it might help to keep the frustration down a lil? im sorry i wish i knew what to do, but hang in there, and keep posting.
" Dwell not on the past. Use it to illustrate a point, then leave it behind. Nothing really matters except what you do now, in this instant of time. From this moment onward you can be an entirely different person, filled with love and understanding, ready with an outstretched hand, uplifted and positive in every thought and deed."