Thank you, I sure wish that I had a site like this in 1983. I was completely alone at that time. It was a long fight back with lots of obstacles. When I tanked 8 years ago and went to the doctor she was great and gave me my first prescription. I went out to my car and literally screamed myself horse (tee hee, I bent the steering wheel). Then I went home and called and cancelled every committee and every board position I had because I realized that they were using me to get their work done but not as committed as I was. It gave me time to breath. I went home and told my husband. I think he was relieved because I know he was worried. The next hurdle was telling my parents, which I did that night (that is me, taking control of my issue). My mom is extremely domineering and always trys to fix everything instead of just listening. My dad is a physician in a very traditional sense. Wow he totally surprised me by listening and getting it. He completely shutdown my mom and was really there for me. After that it wasn't a secret (everyone who mattered knew), it gave me strength. Over the years I have come to view the early time of my marriage as a very powerful one and know that it took incredible strength to keep going during a time when very little was understood about depression and even less compassion was given to those that had the issue. I have come to see strength in not suffering along with depression but doing something about it, whatever that is and it is different for each of us. Perhaps some of it is because there is more public understanding of depression as a physical disease rather than a mental one, but I don't really care who knows. No, it isn't everyone's business but if someone knows and judges me out of their ignorance, they are not someone that I need to be with anyway.
Sorry, these are long posts but these are the things that I never have talked to anyone about because they are old news but I was alone during my recovery (when I say alone, my husband and family were around me but they didn't really understand even though they were there to love me). I'll be around.