hi victoria. i'm fine.
sorry to make you guys worry. sooper is right, i have been staying in my room for the past few days. i didnt even go to class or left home. i kept sleeping during the day and stayed awake at night. and i couldn't stop crying too. i turned the music loud and cried all i want. i was overdosed too and slept like a dead man. it felt so terrible to be conscious when you are overdosed with psychotropic drugs. i felt it many times and it makes me think twice to do it again.
im staying alone. my parents came yesterday with my 2 yrs old youngest sister. they're leaving again today. but i'll be okay. my fiance was angry and sick of my faithlessness. but yesterday his email was very supportive and sweet. it makes me want to live. he beg me to take my medication properly and not abuse them which i will start doing today. hope things will get better.
i love you guys. thanks a lot for being there. god bless you all. hugs to everyone.
:: Chronic Major Depression :: BPD ::