God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.
I have a chronic disease Called Crohn's Disease. Had it much of my life, didn't know it until it was diagnosed in my 30's (I'm now 57). Had trouble with my arteries. 3 1/2 years ago I had 5-way bypass surgery (Angeoplasty didn't work). The Crohn's is pretty much in remission right now. So... could have died twice in my life and have had two major surgerys. Just glad to be here. Every day is a day I could have missed.
I just want to say everyone here is so strong to be able to lay all these personal things out for everyone else to see. I have posted about my past before but lately I have been having a lot of conflict within myself in dealing with it. This is why I have avoided posted to this one thread before now, and for that I feel ashamed of myself.
I have survived:
Being sexually molested from ages 3-11 by my stepfather
Being physically and mentally abused by my stepfather until I was 11
My mother didn’t know (my brother & I were very good at keeping secrets)
Survived being bankrupt and living in a low-income apartment after my mom and stepfather got divorced and having to change schools into a rough part of Kansas City
(He took all the money out of their bank for his attorney fees…he needed it, I guess)
Survived a physically abusive relationship with my “first-love” who tried to kill me – dumped him after a year of it
Survived another abusive relationship with my husband whom I have been divorced from for 2 year – mentally abusive
I am working on surviving having MS and recently being diagnosed with Multiple System Atrophy
Shy, Thank you so much for your kind works, I would of responded yesterday but I was having DSL problems... . It has always been easy for me to put aside my problems or to forget my own trials to constrate on something else...I think this is a big part of my problem now. I dont feel so strong most of the time but, I do want you to know that you have given me alot of inspiration in how you are able to pick yourself up and deal. Your the strong one and I am lucky for being able to get to know you.
Victoria, You got me on the black and white thing... It does for some reason make it all real again for me, dont know why, guess I am very good at burying things and not facing them. Your right in that what happened made me stronger, made us all stronger. Take care friend...hope to talk to ya soon...Hugs
James, well done, 5 years dry is a fantastic achievement!!!
I think you all should be proud of getting through your very tough times. I have been through lots too but am not comfortable to write them down here yet. I trusted someone online and opened up to him only for him to act in the same manner. I tend not to trust people too much nowadays.
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