Okay, after 20 mile bike ride I blew up with my brother, to me he was not accepting responbility for losing the house, not keeping a job, not keeping the house clean, and drinking sneakingly. He actually try to blame me for something that was corrected, by me with my nephew. When I asked let him stay with me, I called him a alcoholic, a drunk, and told him the above reasons I was praying for the words to come in a quiet peaceful matter, it never did happend. He told me I backdoored him. I responded still drinking I see. It hurts, someone needed to say the words, I just gotten fed up. I refused to let him take me back to that dark place I was when my mom died. I know I am in the wrong chat room. But thanks to you and others I finally said the word that needed to be said.
ALCOHOLIC I will asked my nephew does he wants to stay with me and try to get him help, and I will be his place of refuge. Boy! does this hurt, right now. I know I am not the only member with this problem but I feel like I am.
Thank you again, for letting me vent.