rybird, I have edited your post as it has nothing to do with the topic on this thread...Please in the future if your going to post stick to the topic and be sensitive to others feelings. Thank you ~ Elisha
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It did help a lot more . I am on Xanax as needed, and lately it has been needed nearly every day at work, but the sadness seems to hit when I am home and the exteme stress of the day is behind me. I will wait a couple of weeks to see how it's going. I just saw my therapist on Friday, and don't go back for 2 weeks, but if this gets any worse, I will go to the doc about my meds. I really don't want to go through starting a new med, as I have been through that before and as you know it is a miserable few weeks to get adjusted; with the new job, I really don't want to have to go through that right now. I'm hoping that this will pass... thank you for the support.
Hi lovely Bear,
Well, I know too well of late that extra issues in life can bring on a relapse (just gone back on meds myself), but I'm also with Rianna that this might pass without any need to change or adjust your meds. After all, you *are* going through a stressful time and perhaps need to be gentler on yourself and not beat yourself up about relapses just yet because what you're dealing with would stress *anyone* out. Can you wait till you change teams at work and maybe give your new situation a few days before you consult your doc on the meds? I think that change will really take the weight off your shoulders (after all, you say you're taking the Xanax at work, so that seems to be the thing getting to you most). If things don't clear a bit at that point, definitely have a chat with your doc: it's always possible that you've become tolerant to the Lexapro.
Oh Bear -- I didn't mean to worry you about the tolerance thing! That's almost certainly not what's going on here (especially after only just over a year) -- all that stress is a much better candidate for being the cause of how you're feeling. Sorry sorry sorry for any anxiety caused!!! (Darn it, I really wanted to calm you down! Bad Rosie )
Oh, sweetie. I am so sorry to hear you are having a relapse. Depression can be a horrible thing. I have also been dealing with depression and much like you I have had a pattern of on agian off agian depressoin...with anxiety attacks.
The last time I relapsed it lasted 13 months....13 months of daily pain....13 months of cutting myelf & doing a dangerous dance with sucide. I never got help. Each time I would do well...then fall...then get up...and fall agian. It was/is a vicious cycle that I feel/felt trapped in.
I started getting help.The first step was this forum, then I began researching self help, and reading books written by therapists exc. I am going to be seeing a theripist too.
Your journey through depression sounds alot like mine. Depression is a chemical imbalance....but it can also be caused by other issues. In my situation 21 years of repressed rage, fear, saddness, and self loathing, stuffing my feelings away because I couldn't deal with the pain or because it wasn't safe to talk about the pain or the horrors that were my childhood. These feelings contributed to or caused my depression. It was their only outlet. I have so much grief, sandess, rage, and fear that I have not delt with...because of being raised in an abusive situation...that the only way for those feelings to come to the surface was for them to manafest all at once in a horribly painful way.
I am going to a therapist so I can learn how to work through the immense grief and anger that I have because of my parents. Treating the feelings but not the source is not a good thing..my feelings would go away for awhile but always rear their ugly head agian. I urge you to seek help from a specalist if you have gone through any traumatic or painful events in your life or childhood. I have found that my depression keeps coming back because I have not gone through the grieving process fully and I am carrying around 21 years of unresolved stuffed away emotions that I havn't let surface on a fully concious level. working through these feelings make me very sad, makes me feel depressed, makes me have anxiety attacks...but I realize that these are things I need to deal with(and not just stuff away or medicate away because they are uncomfterable) to fully grieve and get well and move on with my life as a healthy sane adult.
Good luck and hugs from me. I hope you will be feeling better soon.
Thank all of you for your replies. I have been feeling that "comes and goes" thing this week. Somebody posted ... somewhere... to eat strawberries... so I've been having 2 a day for the past few days... worth trying and pretty tasty, too! I know I need to go back to my walking, I just haven't <-- BAD BEAR!
Mlbsss, I'm sorry for all that you have suffered. My therapist tells me that I haven't worked through my grief from all the losses in my family, and I certainly think that's a big issue with me as well. (((Hugs))) back and I hope you are feeling better as well!
((((BIG HUGS)))) to all on the depression forum!!
Dear Joan and Rosie,
Oh my, what a sweet thing to say... ... I certainly don't feel like a wonder woman, not even close, but it's nice to hear! In addition to feeling low mentally, I think I have been overdoing it... working too hard and not resting enough, and now I've come down with an infection and my doc has me home for a few days to take antibiotics and rest. I can't believe how fast I got knocked down by this . Maybe it's all related, the depression + overworking (overworrying) lowering my resistance or something. The support here really helps and I appreciate it so much!
Randy, I'm sorry to hear you are having a relapse as well. I hope you begin feeling better soon.
(((BIG HUGS))) to all my friends here on HW,
Hey Bear -- Remember that even Superman has his kryptonite -- so you, as Wonder Bear, are also susceptible to not feeling well. When you're low mentally and stressed it really can affect your immune system and I'm not surprised this has taken a bit of a toll on you. -- Really glad though that your doc has you in hand and you are going to get the rest and treatment you need. Maybe some honey for Bear too?
Lots of love to a poorly Bear