I had a horrible experience last night, scared me so badly. I've been on the Wellbutrin SR 150 for less than 2 weeks - every muscle in the back of my body hurts (this started about a week ago, but has spread from a small area in the small of my back to include my shoulders, neck, and legs). Last night in the middle of the night (woke up about 2am) I started having very paranoid, self destructive thoughts and all I could do was cry and cling to my husband. He held me and assured me he'd take care of me and wouldn't let me do anything that would hurt me. (I've never before had suicidal thoughts until last night, when drinking drain cleaner was truly an option in my head. Very scary) He is working from home today, and might be for the rest of the week.
I called my doc today, and talked to the nurse. I told her that I felt cheated, because everyone I know who has taken wellbutrin loves it - - and my libido and sensitivity were finally returning to normal... then this episode. She reminded me that some meds just cannot be tolerated by some individuals, and we agreed that I could not remain on these meds any longer to see if this is a "side effect" that might just wear off. (The muscle pain I could handle, but not the thoughts of hurting myself or my kids).
Since I'm not willing to take another one of these pills, and I've been on them for less than two weeks I'm going to quit cold turkey. I'll start back on Prozac on Sunday - or a few days later if I still feel like I'm going through some withdrawl, and I'm going to stay on Prozac for a few more months until I level out again. I guess I'm feeling like I am too scared to try another new med right now, and Prozac does work for me without making me neurotic, it just has some side effects that I don't like. Maybe once I'm over this scare I'll be willing to try something new.
Has anything like this happened to any of you? It is so upsetting. I'm waivering between fine and shaky / scared... waves of emotions that I am completely controlled by.
Sorry so long winded, Just needed to vent to people who "get it" how scary this can be sometimes.