Thank you so, so, so much for the encouraging words -- Rosie, I think I almost cried at your kindess and encouragement...you're so sweet. And Atedogs, your support and humor (man, I hope I get an eye-candy doc back at campus...hehe) brought me up after feeling a little low today. Els, thanks for the support -- and I'm on my way to feeling completely safe and open here. Wow...your guys' responses seriously brightened my day. ;)
Oh! And my appointment this morning went just fine. I talked to the psychiatrist there for a long time...and she was really nice. After an hour or so, she said that she'd be putting me on 25 to 50 mg of Zoloft for a month -- and that after a month, I'm supposed to come back and see her in case the dosage needed to be adjusted. I also got Ambien CR for sleeping, because the anxiety attacks gave me insomnia from hell.
I'm going to start the Zoloft tomorrow, and my doctor said that it should also help to alleviate my social anxiety and OC tendencies. I'm actually a little excited, I suppose. I'm so happy that things are turning around...so happy that I gathered up the little courage I had to approach the right people about getting help. And this community has helped so much, too. Even in the little time I've been here... :)
Oh, wow. At this very moment, I can almost forget I have depression. And I'm going to celebrate this tiny slice of time. I hope you guys feel something like this today -- you should. After all, you've helped this scared 'n silly girl feel a little better about her first visits to the Behavioral Health Clinic. Hehe.