Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 8/30/2006 10:49:31 AM (GMT-6)
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 8/30/2006 10:52:23 AM (GMT-6)
Rybird, you have been through so much in your life. I cannot imagine what it must have been like to be in your shoes and to go through what you have. But here you are sharing your story and hoping to make a difference which is awesome. I feel that you could be a great influence for others in many ways with your recovery from drugs & alcohol and being homeless. My Dad was an alcoholic for many years and just quit drinking and smoking on his own when he found out he had lung cancer 5 yrs ago. So I do understand how very difficult it is to stop and how it eats up your life. I am so very proud of you in your recovery.
Something that really spoke to me is a quote from the poet Walter Rinder
"Letting people in is largely a matter of not expending the energy it takes to keep them out."
To me that speaks to the exhaustion that I (and many of us) feel everyday as we try to deal with this desease. It helped me to let go of the pretense that I can be superwoman and go it alone and it helped me to find a way to let others help. I view my depression differently now because of that notion. Now I have more of an attitude that allows me to understand that this is just part of me and it doesn't make me a weak person or a bad person or even a scary person if someone else doesn't understand depression. Letting go of the appearance of "normal" has saved me a ton of energy, showed me who my true friends are and allowed me to truly not care about what other's think as long as I am honest with myself about what I think. We all find inspiration in our own ways.
Post Edited (qut06) : 8/30/2006 12:25:09 PM (GMT-6)
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