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Kala
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   Posted 9/1/2006 12:17 PM (GMT -7)   
I am only 18 years old and i feel as if my life is beginning to end. its pretty much done.

I am having withdrawls which totally sucks but there is nothing i can do. I have no money to purchase any more and i have no ideas of how to fix my issues.

I have been depressed since i was 14 never put onto any meds until recently.

My past history includes being a runaway, i move from place to place every 6 months. I hate it.

I was also addicted to cocaine and ecstacy for a couple of years. about a year ago i quit doing drugs after i saw my best friendd overdosing on a date rape drug that was placed in our drinks without knowing.

I also drank ALOT!!! everyday for a year i was drunk every day i would wake up take my little brothers to school go home sleep wake up get ready and go drink. I did this non stop everyday for a year until my bestfriend(the one who was overdosing on GHB) got pregnent. I had to stop than well i tried i drank alone for a while purchasing mikeys and placing them beside my bed. When i didnt drink i was on the verge of killing someone. I was so mean to my siblings. They annoyed me they ruined my life. I felt as though my mom had them to punish me i raised these kids. Now looking back i realize how much i hurt them.

When i was 14 i ran away from home for 2 years i lived in another province. Never talked to my mom during that time. When i moved back i was still having all these issues. Im sorry if this doesnt make sense. It doesnt make sense to me either.

I lived with my mother for a short time before i got kicked out and moved about 20 more times in the past year. MY mother well she wont let me see my little siblings i love them with all my heart and sole. I never once hit them as much as i hated them i loved them. I would never hurt them. My mother wont let me see them and she knows thats the only way she can hurt me. Its the only way i will deal with everything shes done in the past. I know i am making her seem to be the bad guy i know i did wrong but i know that if she wasnt the way she was everything would be ok. I dont know im so messed up right now i cant even think straight nothing is making anysense to me. .I just keep typing and \words come out. Things i needed to get out but havent because i dont know how or who to tell. I do not care anymore i just want this to stop I want my family i want happiensss i think if you can make sense of this you have a lot of skills but thanks for reading. Even if you do not understand any of this it wont matter because You STILL cared enough to read and try and make sense of it.

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so sad
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   Posted 9/1/2006 1:01 PM (GMT -7)   

Kayla, Yes, I do understand because I felt much like you at 18. I also felt hopeless and worthless. I did not have family or alcohol issues but I had my share of problems. I have been depressed most of my life and at 62 I am still looking for some answers. Depression is an awful feeling and you do deserve better. Take one day at a time but first look for a community mental health clinic to help you with your meds. That is the first step. Please know that you are not alone and there are a lot of people who care about you. I do. Keep me posted. Jeanne x


so sad
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   Posted 9/1/2006 1:45 PM (GMT -7)   
Kala, I am so sorry. In re-reading your post and my answer I realized that I was not very comforting. I want to help others deal with depression but I do not seem to know the right things to say. I know that when I am feeling as you do I don't want stock answers. I want understanding and help. I cannot imagine all you have been through in your short life. I also know you are severly depressed. You must be a very tough person just to have survived the life you have had. You are stronger than you think. I hope someone who has more experience will reply to you. I do care and will keep you in my prayers. Jeanne

letmebe
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   Posted 9/1/2006 2:36 PM (GMT -7)   
You are not alone in how you feel Kala, I hope someone answers and says the right things. You have lost your way and it sounds like,you, as a child were never given clear guides or shown the way to go.

None of this is your fault, you have coped the only way you know how. Growing up is hard and realization is a bit of a shock. You will be in control as you are an adult now, it can only get better.


There is so much you need to experience and feel, dont be hard on yourself!

LondonGirl22
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   Posted 9/1/2006 3:18 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Kala,

Welcome to the healing well forum. You have been through so much so young and I'm sorry you are going through this.
Have you got a free clinic in your area where you can talk to someone about your med situation? If you can recieve some sort of counselling I think that could really benefit you. Im from the UK so Im not sure how the system works with us with regards ti cost of treatment etc and what you can get for free.
I do wish you all the best and I would love for you to keep posting on the forum - we are happy to have you here.

Keep in touch
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CounterClockwise
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   Posted 9/1/2006 3:57 PM (GMT -7)   
Kala, hun, you've been through a huge amount -- and sounds like you've overcome *a lot* too -- drug and alcohol dependence. -- Please give yourself credit for this. -- Those people here who've had these problems (and I know that there are several who have) completely understand how hard it is to put that behind you. I have huge respect for you for that.

When we're young the family we have is the one we were born in to. (I was lucky to have a good one, with lots of support -- even though at times I was so low I was unable to deal with it.) As we grow older the people we keep around us and cherish are up to us -- our families by choice rather than genetics. You have a whole life ahead of you: I am such a different person -- so much more secure -- now than I was at 18 (when, like you, I felt for much of the time like my sky had fallen in and I was trapped); you will find yourself too, as you grow into your new life and find that there are joys there for you.

I do agree with the others, though, that seeking professional help would *really* help you (I did finally, and wow what a difference that made). In time you'll learn how to put some of these things behind you -- and remember that when your siblings are older they can make their own choices about seeing you -- and if I were them, I'd want to.

Take care Kala.

Rosie x
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When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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Kala
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   Posted 9/1/2006 4:53 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you all so much i cant stop crying because for once i feel like maybe some people do understand me.

I thought about getting help and going to a counsellor but i have a hard time when it comes to liking those people im not gonna talk to a lady or man who has never dealt with anything that i have. It just feels weird. I also dont like the idea of talking to them i feel like im burdening them i feel awful.

Yes i recovered from drug and alcohol abuse but i really wish that i had never had to turn to that stuff. I wanted a normal life with friends and family but i never got those.

My mother tried to keep me in a bubble and it wasnt a good bubble I hate her for that and never had a life i think thats why i started to become the person i did.

I know my siblings will come to me one day...but i cant help but think that my mother and other family members would turn them against me. Make them hate me there so young.


Thank you once again i do feel a little bit better.

CounterClockwise
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   Posted 9/1/2006 5:03 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Kala,

It's 1am in the morning over here in the UK, and time for me to hurl myself towards bed (I'm so graceful!?!). But I did just want to send you a hug before I did. (((Kala))) Enjoy the feelings -- and I'll be back on tomorrow to check how you're doing.

Rosie x
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People are not like fish: they do not work better battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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Shortstop
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   Posted 9/1/2006 6:04 PM (GMT -7)   
Kala just keep writing until it is all out. Writing is theraputic and helps tremendously and don't be afraid to speak openly here...I am a newbie myself but I find this place a wealth of help and support....Stopping any addiction is hard, especially if you are doing it alone...I am proud of you for stopping the addictive behaviors that is great and deserves a great pat on the back....
I also agree that you should seek a counselor to talk with, one that will support you and help you build positive things in your life...
 Severe herniated S1 disc that caused never damage on left side and wonderful reflex tricks, mild herniated L4/5 disc, severe spinal stenosis, panic disorder, major depression and if that wasn't enough IBS with the beginning stages of diverticulosis. 


Kala
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   Posted 9/1/2006 6:08 PM (GMT -7)   
Counter Clock wise *BIG HUG*

its only 7pm here in canada im just watching some CSI with my boyfriend and my baby cat.

I know writing helps and thats why i came here. :D

Kala
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   Posted 9/1/2006 6:09 PM (GMT -7)   
And i know im not alone i have a wonderfull boyfriend and now you guys and its the greatest feeling in the world to know theres people who care. and want to be there :D

thanks again

missie1227
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   Posted 9/1/2006 7:00 PM (GMT -7)   
kala i am so happy for you that you ahve a nice boyfriend!! if he is nice to you then you gots to keep him!!!
it is hard to find a nice guy thesedays....
9-02 crash w/ C-5-6-7 anterior/posterior fusion in neck w/11 screws and 4 metal plates. multilevel HNP at T & L section. FMS, PA in dec 05. on SSDI after 2.5 yr wait. sezuires, CTS, IBS ( C & D). norco, xanax, predisone shots. i dont know what else is wrong with me and neither does anyone else!!!


CounterClockwise
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   Posted 9/2/2006 12:47 AM (GMT -7)   
Oooh, Kala -- I *love* CSI (original and Miami -- not really got into the NY one)! So glad you were having a nice evening with your bf and baby cat (aaahh -- I want one!!). I'm so glad too that your day ended with this nice stuff and a feeling of happiness. -- That's the great pay-off of depression -- for all its bad, when it lifts, even in places, we get a kind of double joy that we'd never know without having experienced it. You can't beat those times. :) I hope they continue to grow in number for you hun.

How are you today? -- I know progress can be slow and that things can change quickly -- so don't worry, I'm not *expecting* you to be all cheery, just celebrating the moments of respite that you've had and wishing you a whole accummulation of them.

Rosie x
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People are not like fish: they do not work better battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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Kala
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   Posted 9/2/2006 7:49 AM (GMT -7)   
I have to admit that i like the Origianal CSI the most i think its that one....well i know it has grissom in it thats the one i like lol. My baby cat is annoying me right now she keeps on jumping on my lap and at 7 this morning shw was crawling on my face so i would wake up.

Missy- ITS IMPOSSIBLE to find great males in the world today...they all seem to be so darn arrogent and there is always something wrong with them!!! but ya im really lucky to have found him....my first true love...and first relationship that lasted over a month.

well rosie and missie i am feeling a little bit better im not haveing any attacks as of yet so i guess im just gonna have to hope it stays like this. ''Both of u and everyone else have a good day ok :D

ps. i decided that im going to go to the gym to see if it will make me feel better,....working out causes endorphins and endorphins mean happieness.

yes i watched legally blonde but its true so wish me luck

CounterClockwise
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   Posted 9/2/2006 8:48 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Kala,

Yup, with you on the CSI front -- Grissom is the best! (Bug man!)

Oh, naughty cat. Still, I think cats know when you're not feeling good and reckon this lil' one is probably trying to make you feel better -- if in a quite anoying and unhelpful way! Definitely loves its new mamma!!

Cherish that man of yours -- he sounds wonderful. I'm so glad you have him in your life to give you that warmth! Yes, you're right: they are *very* few and far between!!

Just saw your a-p post. Having read the above I'm now even *more* sure that you took your anxiety (about having a panic attack) into your dream and that's why it played out like it did. As I said in my reply to that post, please know that this was not real and that your dream was just playing out your big fear at the moment. Chances are that was it and you won't keep getting bothered by these. And you're still alive so you know that they are to be feared less for that.

Hope the gym trip works, or worked, wonders on your anxiety levels. Yes, endorphins are great friends to get on board! Have some hugs too (((Kala))) -- and get a few off your lovely fella.

Love to you,
Rosie x
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People are not like fish: they do not work better battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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Kala
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   Posted 9/2/2006 8:55 AM (GMT -7)   
I know my baby cat knows when im upset shes always in my way trying to cuddle me. I love her for that she keeps me feeling save even tho shes still a baby!!! yes her name is baby cat lol and i refer to myself as her mother and my boyfriend as daddy.lo l

Sometimes i feel as tho the only reason hes with me is because he knows what i would turn into without him . For the last 8 months i have put so much onto him im afraid that one day he will get fed up . I get really paranoid of losing him and when im upset i push him away i dont talk to him and im so mean to him i dont know why he deals with it sometimes.

I havent gone to the gym yet im still waking up takes me a few hours to get adjusted.

Im happy that i dont have as many brain zaps today....I really hope i didnt jynx myself.

I believe everyone needs a pet they love you no matter what. :D

CounterClockwise
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   Posted 9/2/2006 10:06 AM (GMT -7)   
Well Kala, from what I can tell, you're a lovely person, and your bf is just as lucky to have you as you are to have him. I think you, your bf and baby cat make a lovely lil' family! I know that the depression can sometimes make you feel worthless and think that others shouldn't waste their time on you, but trust that your bf knows his mind: if he wanted to leave, he would, and the fact that he's with you and comes up and gives you big hugs and stuff means he really loves you and it's as good for him as it is for oyu to be a round the person he loves.

I agree about pets. -- I'd *love* a lil' cat of my own, but I live in rented accommodation and no pets allowed. Poop. I do get to go and play with my parents' and sister's cats though -- and my parents cat (Chilli) *definitely* loves me best (tee hee -- he's such a tart: always comes to me and sprawls himself on the ground for his belly rub!)

Rosie x
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People are not like fish: they do not work better battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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Kala
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   Posted 9/2/2006 10:26 AM (GMT -7)   
I try and say that its just me and that i know he loves me but sometimes its really hard to believe until he gives me a hug....im constantly asking him why hes with me....

owwwww you can have my baby cat shes so CRAZY right now i have my lip pierced and shes trying to play baseball with it and her paw!!! AHHH and when i move her she just comes back with more force lol

Chilli aww thats sooo cute...at my moms house growing up we had alot of animals she still has them all pretty much
Kittyys included- Pausum (she died)
Phantom
Scooby
Squeekers
whiskers
akoona
pepper
she has all but the oone

dogs included angel and simba
my puppy shiloh died a few years ago. :( but i got her creamated

Other pets include a ferret, rabbit, 2 birds, gerbil

ya i lived in a zoo it was actually really good i was always playing with something lol

stronglady4me
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   Posted 9/2/2006 10:49 AM (GMT -7)   
Kayla, WOW did you come to the right place.  All of this makes sense because it is a story that many people here share in various degrees.  Here you will find support and hopefully comfort.  While I share the depression experience I do not share the drug issues and will not try to counsel you but rather let others who have walked that road do so.  I do however have some perspectives to offer that I  hope might help.
 
I don't know your mum and you so I wouldn't even try to counsel you on that experience.  I will however tell you about my experience with my husband's brother and his mother.  Brother turned out to be a pedephile and I cut him off from our family as soon as we found out because we had a small child.  Now you might think that is a resonable response but I caught all kinds of flack and grief from the family about it. There were willing to say, "Oh poor________," and not recognize that it was about my kids and their safety.  As an adult Poor _________ made his choices.  When we married my mother-in-law was a drinking alcoholic.  When we can kids she made my pregnancy very difficult (long story) but she also stopped drinking after our first child was born.  I did let her see the kids but never unsupervised because we didn't know if she was drinking again or not and part of her personality as an alcoholic was very manipulative.  I guess what I am saying is that these were tough decisions to make but they had only and solely to do with the safety and wellbeing of my kids.  I wasn't angry and Mother-in-law I was just taking care of my kids.  I am guessing that your mother doesn't know how to trust you because there is a lot she doesn't understand.  What you feel toward her is true and valid and I won't tell you to feel otherwise, only that some sort of mutual understanding will have to occur if you are both to ever change this. 
 
The other thing that I want to say is that there are many prescription assistance programs available from drug companies.  It is against the rules to post links here but if you email me I can send you some links that might help you with the medications you need.
 
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Kala
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   Posted 9/2/2006 11:09 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks strong lady...i know what you were trying to say ...and i know my mother doesnt trust me i did put her through alot and she did the same to me. She just called me and i told her how i was feeling with these withdrawls..and she asked me why i was put onto Effexor in the first place..i couldnt bare to tell her that i thought about death on a daily basis and that i was a emotional wreck so i told her that i was put onto them to calm me down....

I didnt want to lie to her...and i dont want her to feel like im putting blame onto her...as i know i am....its just so hard to make sense of anything right now and all i really need is a hug....and to be told that im loved...my boyfriend tells me like every 5 minutes that he loves me but i think i neeed my mom to love me and understand me...but she to is manipulative...shes had a very bad history with drugs and yes she was even a prostitute when she was young. In so many ways were alike but she doesnt seem to understand and i think she just i dont know.

If i were in your situation i would have done the same thing kids should be the parents number one concern and by writing him off you did do the right thing. Even if he didnt go for your children its still wrong to have him around.
&& maybe when people say you've changed
its because you stopped living your life, their way...


My reflection makes me sick
The pain we feel is nothing new
Prescription drugs and photographs
Love, loneliness and nervous laughs
What you call misery through anxious eyes
Is something I can’t see..






.&&.Somehow there's always a reason;;
to never feel good enoughh.


so sad
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   Posted 9/2/2006 12:36 PM (GMT -7)   

Kala--I think I have figured it out finally. You are upset because of the situation with your Mom and her not allowing you to see your siblings. Well girl guess what--you are not going to change your mother and you do not need her to be the person you are. You are a very loving and caring woman. If you have made repeated attempts to connect with your mother and you are still in a turmoil then I would suggest that you move on with your life without her input. This is not really a good time for you to be dealing with these issues when you are withdrawing from a medication. Your world is turned upside down right now. You can be selfish and take care of yourself first. You owe yourself that, and you deserve it. When you are in a better place in your mind you will find life much easier to deal with.

You can trust me on this--if you do not like yourself then you have to fix that first of all, or you will always be depending on someone else to make you happy. I know because for years I have had major depression and have taken every known antidepressant on the market plus psychotherapy and ECTtreatments. I never have been happy with myself. My parents reinforced the idea that I was stupid. I married at 19 for all the wrong reasons and we have managed to make it work for 43 years. I love my husband very much and he is good to me but I often wish that we could go back and start over with me knowing who I am before we married. I am sure it would have been an easier relationship if I were a stronger person. Just hang on honey and find a community mental health clinic to help with your meds and then move forward by forgiving yourself for all of your past mistakes (we have all made mistakes we regret) and realizing that you ARE a survivor and also a good person. I am not up on all the latest things (senior citizen and all) and I really don't like cats (sorry, but I have asthma) but I do care about you and so do many others.

My youngest son and his wife are coming for overnight tomorrow. Best of all they are bringing my two smallest grandchildren 7 and 5. They and thier three other cousins (children of my older son and his wife) are the lights in my life (plus, good deal here--I am not allergic to them). Hope your labor day weekend contains some joy too.


CounterClockwise
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   Posted 9/3/2006 6:43 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Kala,

Wow, that's a *lot* of pets -- and a ferret! Wonderful!

You know, from what you say, I feel like your mum struggles with you because you are so alike and because she's never really managed to get a grip of herself and therefore doesn't know how to help you. I think you are very self-aware and are growing into a pretty wise lady (your great advice to others reflects this): you *do* know what to do to help yourself and find peace, and you *will* get there. And you know what, that won't fix your mum either -- because then she'll probably be jealous. Just as others have said that you need to love yourself first before you can deal with working out how to deal with situations with others, so your mum really needs to do the same.

I see all the signs with you that your journey to wellness and wholeness has already started -- and it's a bright one. Believe in yourself Kala -- you have so much life in you, and such potential for happiness.

(((Kala)))

Rosie x

P.S. Great signature -- but very sad... well, we'll work on that: bet you change it to something happier within the month!! ;)
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People are not like fish: they do not work better battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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Kala
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   Posted 9/3/2006 9:08 AM (GMT -7)   
Thanks rosie...i know that im alot like my mother...thats why my grandparents hate me because i remind them of my mother when she was younger...yay???

I have heard * Kayla you have so much potential if only you put your mind into it* a million times now and i still dont see it but hopefully if others can see it one day soon i will be able to.

Ya my whole family loves animals so someone got one like every other month *usually my little sister*

So sad i hope you cook a nice meal for you family!!! MAKE SURE TO HAVE MASHED POTATOES! lol
I know i cant fix things with my mom and that they wont ever be *Great* i just really wish that they would...as much as i hate her i still need her in my life...I need family in my life.
hhh
I stopped talking to my older sister because of my mother.....my mother made me lie....and i cant lie i hate lieing so after i told her these lies...i called her back and told her the truth and got into a huge fight with both sides mother and sister. But the great thing is is my mom only hates me sometimes...i can always manage to sneak back in before she loses it on me for nothing.. Or something of my past.
So sad im so HAPPY that you said those things...that people actually do care....and i hope that you have a total BLAST with your family.....

Ya im 18 and was at one point that popular person....ah so im up to date LOL ok no not really up to date...to much to follow!! You should get a hairless puppy!! :D
&& maybe when people say you've changed
its because you stopped living your life, their way...


My reflection makes me sick
The pain we feel is nothing new
Prescription drugs and photographs
Love, loneliness and nervous laughs
What you call misery through anxious eyes
Is something I can’t see..


CounterClockwise
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   Posted 9/3/2006 12:31 PM (GMT -7)   
You know what hun, you *will* begin to see your own strength. -- I hope you begin to see glimpses of it each time you respond to posts here -- for yourself and for others. Others will see this and will be drawn to you -- hey, they already are: we all love you, and you have a great lil' family with Baby Cat and Patrick. Make yourself and your immediate environment strong: you'll then be able to begin the process of trying to sort things out with your family. It won't all happen at once, but I don't think things are beyond hope. You've got a lot on your side: a great capacity for love and honesty: others will learn to value that and those who don't you will learn to put behind you. As I say all the time, there are genetic families that we find ourself in (some bad, some good), and then there are the families we make around us. That doesn't mean that anyone should necessarily write off their genetic family, but it does mean that sometimes we need to grow our own families to give us a surer foundation for our lives.

Rosie x
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People are not like fish: they do not work well battered.

When I'm not in my right mind, my left mind gets pretty crowded...

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Co-Moderator, Bipolar Forum


Kala
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   Posted 9/3/2006 2:20 PM (GMT -7)   
wow your so sweet i dont know what to say but im always happy to read what you have to say because even if its just for a moment it makes me fell alot better.
I know im strong im still alive right? Im still going on with daily things...i just need to get stronger and find my center.
&& maybe when people say you've changed
its because you stopped living your life, their way...


My reflection makes me sick
The pain we feel is nothing new
Prescription drugs and photographs
Love, loneliness and nervous laughs
What you call misery through anxious eyes
Is something I can’t see..

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