Hi nash, Welcome to healing well. I understand it is difficult posting for the first time and trying to reach out to people who you don’t know. I'm not too sure that I understand what your trying to say in your post here...perhaps your not from America and have difficulty with English? Please correct me if I’m wrong.
Depression is a devastating disease and if left untreated can potentially have horrific effects on a person. I have had depression for many years and been on and off meds several times over the course of these times. I would strongly suggest that you seek professional help immediately. Especially if your having thoughts of ending your life. There is no reason for you to have to live your life like this in pain. I am going to post a few links below for you just incase you ever feel the need to use them then you will have them...Please know that we are always here so feel free to continue to post. Take care
ElishaCo~Mod: DepressionModerator: Heart & Cardiovascular Diseasehttp://www.healingwell.com/donate
Hi Nash, I am sorry that there wasnt anyone in chat for you to speak to. I think perhaps the problem may be that there is a huge time difference considering where you live. It is wonderful that you remember the things you like to do and try to keep those things in mind. Listen to the music that makes you most happy...I dont know how old you are but is there a parent or friend that you can speak to regarding this? Please do seek out the help of your physician, there are many medications that can help for depression and will help greatly with making these feelings that your having (that most of us have dealt with before) go away.
I posted above an International suicide crisis hotline for you, there is always someone there to speak to all you have to do is pick up the phone.....