I was anorexic years ago and sunk down to a very low weight (I don't know what because I was banned from scales! -- but I've seen some pics!!). When you've been denying your body food for a long time it tends to take a bit of easing back in to get your body (and your mind!) comfortable with food again -- especially because your stomach will be shrunken in size and just may not be able to take normal portions. When I started back towards getting better I really did have to start at the bottom of the "food chain" -- with baby food!! I progressed to soup and peas mixed in with rice. And I took lots of vitamins -- to get my mind and body working as well as possible for this challenge.
Well, it worked: I upped my intake graduallyand healthily. You may have to work towards the plan T Bird suggests, because, as I say, your body may not be capable of eating that much to start with. Eat little and often is the rule. If your stomach has shrunk, it will need to become accustomed to food again and to expland gradually. I would aim for a slow start, working up to 5 or 6 small meals, spaced out over the day and along the lines T Bird has suggested -- as natural as possible (bananas are a *great* idea). If you can get comfortable with that over a couple of weeks, or maybe a bit more, start cutting back on the number of meals (6 down to 5, then down to 4, then down to 3 -- no less) and upping the amount you eat for each.
You are doing a very strong thing. It's tough pulling out of this condition, but it *can* be done. I was told "once an anorexic always an anorexic", but that's not the case. I may have a tendency to cut back on food still when I'm low, but something kicks in to help me from taking this too far now (and cognitive behavioural therapy helped *a lot* with this: after all, playing with food is just a way of displacing anxieties -- and those often have nothing to do with food in their own right, it just becomes that way). I still remember the day I realised that I *enjoyed* food -- this struck me a while after I'd got back to normal eating.
Really good luck with this. As I say, do it slow and steady. My thoughts are with you hun.
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