I agree too that anger can be a great motivator...sometimes my anger is the only thing that gets me moving. I am sorry that your family and friends are not supportive of you and are not helping you during you time of need. I can very well understand where your coming from. When I was with my husband I had doctor, hospital and medication bills rolling in by the truck load, thousands of dollars that I didnt have. He refused to help me pay for them, I have MS and was dxed after we were married, I watched him buy expensive electronic games, TV's, all kinds of things, while I was drowning in debt. I still had to pay to him my "half" of the bills, house payment and utilities. Granted I wasnt going to be homeless but money problems is a huge stressor and when you have an illness it compounds everything together.
I dont know if you have checked into this and I know of this program from my previous job. Your on disability and limited income you can go to Division of Family Services and file for Section 8 housing (that is what it is called here in MO, maybe differant in other states) but it prorates your rent according your income. If your on disability you should more than qualify for this and if your in the postion of getting ready to lose your house or apartment they can put in for emergency status and bump you up on the list. You find an apartment and they take care of the rest. It is worth checking into...if you havent already. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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