Waking up and feeling out of sorts

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ShynSassy
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   Posted 10/27/2006 5:27 AM (GMT -7)   
I think I am so used to things going wrong that there are many mornings that I wake up with that "out of sorts" feeling. I have to tell myself that things are fine over and over.
I think I am just expecting things to be wrong,and I wish I could get over that.
It is affecting my relationship with my b/f because if we have the slighest fight,I think my world is coming to an end and we are breaking up.
He tells me all of the time that it is normal to fight... and he is not my ex-husband and will not hit me.
I do know that in my heart. But my brain puts me on the defense at all times.
I am sure it is frustrating for him as I know he thinks I am putting him in the same catagory as my ex. I do not mean to do that. And have told him that he is awesome. And I do not mean to think like that,or be on my guard at all times.
darn satan,he has left deep scars that I don't think will ever go away.
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els
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   Posted 10/28/2006 7:17 AM (GMT -7)   
I am much like that Shy.  Starting each day is difficult as I automatically expect things to go wrong or something to happen.  I am in a differant environment now as are you and still it is hard to retrain the brain.  Such as not flinching or jumping when someone makes a quick movement towards you...I do this all the time and it has been years since I have been hit. 
It may take you alittle while longer to become more secure in your relationship with your boyfriend.  You know in your heart that he wont hurt you...but there is still that part of your brain that wont let it go.  That is were the anxiety is coming from. 
I also hope that your boyfriend is patient with you as your issues arnt just from an abusive ex-husband but go back further than that and are more deep seated in your mind than this.  Your going to have scars and some of them may not ever heal for you, I hope they do but you have find a balance of living with them the best you can.  Which you have been doing a great job of Shy...have confidence in yourself my friend. :-)    I wish you a wonderful weekend.


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hopefulmigrainer
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   Posted 10/28/2006 11:43 AM (GMT -7)   
I'm so sorry but YOU can overcome this - God ALWAYS prevails over satan. You might have a form of PTSD - post traumatic stress disorder. Be sure that you are seeing a psychologist too - don't try to do this alone.
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ShynSassy
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   Posted 10/28/2006 6:38 PM (GMT -7)   
Elisha
Have I told you that I am very grateful for you??? From my very first post on this site you have said just the right words.
As have many others.
Hopeful, I think you are right. I just wish after all of this time I could overcome it. It is so frustrating to have your past rule your future.
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els
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   Posted 10/29/2006 6:39 AM (GMT -7)   
Oh thank you Shy eyes you have made my day... tongue

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   Posted 10/29/2006 9:10 AM (GMT -7)   
I am also in the process of retraining my brain. It is a very slow process. I got stuck with vegetative depression and it has been one long climb out. It is good when we are encouraging each other.
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