im new to the board. i'm at work right now and i'm feeling bad and decided to search the web for a forum to help with my depression, i figure the net has a forum for everything and i found this forum.
my depression is weird, i've tried to go to therapists they didnt work out because i felt like i was paying someone to listen to me and i didnt get much help other than let me scream. i've tried pills which were bad, i was a walking zombie.
i get really mad, my blood pressure is so high because of how mad i get *im only 22*. i sit and think and get so upset about things that happened 10 year or more ago. i feel so guilty i feel like i'm gonna die. *litterally my chest is so tight, and i feel like i wanna jump outta my skin*
i more or less just wanted to come to a place, where i could type what i feel without being judged, on the surface my life seems fine *i could win an emmy with my performances* and inside im a big old mess. sometimes i can control it sometimes im flying off the handle. i get so sad i dont know what to do, then im happy for no reason... like im happy because the clouds are out. just wanted to let these feelings out, thanks so much for being there.