I am sorry that you're sad about your break up with Emily. It is natural to be sad and feel lonely when a relationship ends.
You mentioned that Emily has made it clear she doesn't want to be contacted. Respect her request and end your pain faster by moving on. Stop trying to contact her with your youtube messages. Assume she isn't watching them and it's time to start living your life for yourself.
Do you have a support group you can turn to? Parents, siblings, friends? Can you go out with them after work or on the weekends? Can you call them instead of making videos? Do you have another hobby that you haven't practiced in a while? What can you do in your spare time that doesn't involve Emily?
What can you do for a while that will take your mind off Emily while you heal from the hurt of breaking up? I think that you need to accept that it's over and move on, you're only prolonging your hurt by refusing to accept it's over and leaving her messages.
You've found this forum, use it to vent how you are feeling and talk to others who know how you feel. If you don't start to feel better soon, perhaps you might consider finding a therapist who can help you.
Hi Simon, Welcome to healing well forum, we are happy to have you. I am very sorry about your break-up, I understand it is very difficult and even more so when you wish so much to change things. I believe you have received some very sound advice/suggestions from our members thus far. Personally, I dont feel comfortable commenting too much on your situation as I dont know what has brought about your break-up and the circumstances of your relationship.
What I can tell you from my own experiance is when I seperated from my husband we went through a period where we were not speaking for several months. He put pictures from our wedding on his web site and left messages for me on there also. I was upset by this as any and everyone could see this and know our business. Lucky for him I didnt know he had done this until after the fact...his attorney advised him to take them down and I never saw any of it...but just knowing he had done it was enough.
What you decide to do is always your business but, I would think if your wanting to say your sorry for something or asking Emily not to hate you for whatever reason it would be better received if you wrote her a letter and sent her some flowers or something of that nature instead of putting it on the internet. But this is just my opinion...
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Post Edited (josey) : 12/7/2006 1:44:57 AM (GMT-7)
As its Christmas I've been making a few videos everyday now. I delete most of them including the ones where my face is shown. I found out Emily wanted our teddy, Huxtable back but didn't even ask about me. I was so angry (and still am) I made a spiteful video where basically I punch the teddy. After I made it I cried for two hours
Here's another where I achieve some mathematical proof that my madness is justified because it is
Appreciate your advice/input
Simon, I have edited your post due to forum several rules. One being language and violance of your first link. The second being that you posted your last name which if you want people to know who you are is your business is but as to your ex-girlfriend Emily it is not right to post her last name on this forum in a link or otherwise that would open us up to possible liable. Thank you ~ Elisha
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 12/21/2006 6:27:20 AM (GMT-7)
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God, Please Grant Me,
The Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The Courage to change the things that I can,
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