i think that covers it all. i know that this is unhealthy, but i can't bring myself to forgive him. my mom always says 'aren't you being a little harsh just for some groundings?' but it's nore than just that: he didn't respect me or listen to me. he'd interrupt me whenever i was talking, and then he'd scream when i started talking again. i know that whenever he screamed at me, he knew that he would scare me. he would always come real close to me and stand real tall, trying to intimidate me.
this relationship isn't good. part of me likes it the way it is now, where i don't have to talk to him much. but, i want a functional relationship with both of my parents, not just my mom. i haven't gotten my dad a birthday or fathers day present for about 2 years. i hope that people reading this aren't mad at me...
Hi claustrophibia, Welcome to healing well we are happy to have you. First please excuse me but I dont have children so I am going to reply to your post here based off of my personal experiences. I was wondering if your seeing a counselor or psychiatrist? You stated that you were diagnosed with "Internet Addiction" so, I figure that you must of seen some professional for this diagnosis. You gave a lot of back ground on what behaviors your father exhibits towards you and how your feeling and interacting towards him but you didnt explain what brought this about other then the internet addiction.
I did alot of stupid things as a kid and a lot of things that I shouldn’t of done and didnt get caught doing. Sometimes the punishment doesn’t always fit the crime and in life at your age I do remember thinking that my mom was coming down on me too hard or things werent fair. I often was sulky and didnt talk to my mother and pulled away when she tried to touch me. I am 32 now and realize that she had every right to do as she did she was trying to protect me and I was doing things that were harmful to me. But during that time I was unwilling and unable to see that. The teenage years of life are the most difficult and I wouldnt go back and do them over for anything in the world. I hope for you that you can get through them with as little turbulence as possible.
The one and only thing you can count on in this world and life is your family and parents...dont pull away from them.
ElishaCo~Mod: DepressionModerator: Heart & Cardiovascular Diseasehttp://www.healingwell.com/donate