Hi Anna, I wanted to welcome you to Healing Well forum, we are happy to have you. I wondered if you have spoken to your doctor regarding you recent feelings of depression. Sometimes when we start an antidepressant it takes a bit of an adjustment for the right dosage to be found to keep depression at bay. I found this to be true when I was taking Zoloft I had to keep increasing the dosage it certain intervals when depression started to return. Please dont be afraid to talk to your doctor about these symptoms and feelings this is what they are there for and the medication is to help you.
I can not answer the questions you have posed in your post I think that "finding happiness" is different for all of us and with depression it is difficult to reach that goal. I can say that for me with the right medication and therapy to deal with and discuss some of my deeper issues I have been able to find some peace and happiness but I believe that always comes from within.
ElishaCo~Mod: DepressionModerator: Heart & Cardiovascular Diseasehttp://www.healingwell.com/donate