I'm sorry to hear about your illness and your loses. I applaud you for your work for the homeless.
I lost my husband last March and I had to put one of my dogs to sleep a
month ago. I understand
your depression, as I have what is called, situational anxiety/ depression.
I was thinking that Christmas eve that you might watch the Christmas programs on TV and
maybe make a list of positive things you'd like to accomplish next year,both long term and short
term. Maybe taking up a new hobby. I've made a list and I'm really looking forward too next year.
Have a Happy Christmas. Dee
Loosing your husband is dreadful, I am very sorry to hear that. I hope you have a good support network around you to help you when it gets bad?
Your idea of making a list seems like it is worth a try as long as I keep it to the simple pleasures in life! I have always been a 'listy' and I think that's where half my problem comes from - there were sooo many things on the list that superman could not achive them in the space of one life time! So I ripped my list up and boy did it make be feel better (it was only short lived though, I felt a little lost after a while, like I had no direction. How sad is that!!!)
It was suggested earlier in the year that we write down everything that has been bad this year and burn it. It was some sort of Pagan Halloween ritual, apparently the Pagan new years eve is Halloween. But we didn't get round to it, my husband and I are going to do this on New Years eve instead (better late than never). I am just glad that he is so supportive.
Sorry to hear about your dog too, I am a huge animal lover and have also put a number of dogs to sleep over the years, it is not a pleasant experience, but I just feel glad that we can make the choice to put them to sleep and remove thier pain. Dogs are wonderful companions. Will you get another one?
Hobbies is a good idea, I love archery and gold and I hven't done either in 2006, so maybe I can start my list with those.
Thanks for the input, it does help. I think I just have to find my dertermination again.