Thank you all for all your support and encouraging words of hope. I will (attempt to the best of my ability) to follow through on seeing my Psychiatrist. I only pray the day of the appointment is a good day and I will be able to make to appointment. Yes, I am lost REALLY lost without my Grandmother and Husband. As mentioned they were both the centre of my universe. It was with their support and encouragement that allowed me to have such a successful career and be able to achieve this career and be recognized as a "regular" human being. Not knowing any of my personal problems ie, not just the depression, but I too also suffer from anxiety, panic attacks. But it has always been depression mostly during this time of year. I PROMISE to keep in touch .. for what ever reason, I found this little bit of peace on this web site. As much as I pains me each time to read, or even attempt to open up to read .. I have continued to seek the advise from all of you.... and that I AM SO THANK FUL FOR.
I will be making my appointment tomorrow, and You all my feeling and concerns will be aired during my session with him. I will keep you all posted. AGAIN -- Thank you all so very much. For a person who has isolated herself from friends due to her illness I do believe I am finding (If I may say) friends here online. AGAIN thank you all.