Hello to all,
I've been battling depression for over half my life. I've been taking anti-depressants on and off since I was 18, and am currently taking a healthy dose of Welbutrin XL. I was doing fairly well for a long time, meaning that I was comfortable with the level of depression that I was feeling. One thing that I think helped me out quite a bit was that I was a caffeine junky. As long as I maintained the proper level of caffeine, I was pretty outgoing, quick to laugh, and fun to be around.
All that changed this last July when I was diagnosed with an intestinal disease that precludes me from caffeinated beverages, as well as alcohol, sugarry foods, and fatty foods. All of my crutches got swept away with one diagnosis. I am now back to being a pretty quiet guy who rarely smiles, and I don't seem to have the same sense of humor that I had. This was brought to my attention today when I had a sit-down with my supervisor at work. I work at a small place, and have only been there for three months. At this job, personality means more than hard-work, dedication, or even experience. Apparently I'm a very difficult person for people to understand, mainly because I'm fairly expressionless, and they don't know how to take me. While I feel that I've been putting in the effort to be more outgoing, accepting, and sociable, they apparently haven't noticed it.
All of this leads me to my question: Aside from amphetamines or other illicit drugs, anybody have any idea for something that would give me a kick in the butt like caffeine used to? I'm going to see a psych soon to see about switching my meds, because apparently the ones I'm taking aren't doing the trick anymore. Anyone take something that makes them more energetic, outgoing, or at least less surly? I miss being good humored and I think my co-workers would appreciate a change.
There is a lot more to my situation, but I don't want to get to detailed and bore people to death. Thanks in advance for any advice or pointers.